OMG!

So here I sit once again at Starbucks.

I have been absent for a few days, do to a lack of inspiration.

Well I am inspired today.  I am freaking out about having my last session with a therapist I have been seeing since April.  She was there for me at my worst, when I thought that the dark clouds would never clear up.  She was there when I had doubts about the prospect of becoming a first time parent.  She was there when I spilled my guts about pretty much every thing else.

I never thought that I would have such a strong therapeutic relationship with anyone, and trust me when I say I have been to many in my lifetime.  And especially since it has only been for 5 months.  5MONTHS!!!

And now; today, am faced with saying good-bye to her as she is going on maternity leave.  It is my plan to return to see her upon her return, but she will have been gone a month longer than I have known her, and starting with a new therapist next week has me wondering if I will actually go back to her in the end.

So how do I say good-bye when I am not sure it is good-bye for good?

O.M.G!!

I suppose I should feel lucky that we (Torontonians) are not in the line of fire of Hurricane Irene.  All we are getting is a grey windy day out of her.  

So my thoughts and prayers go out to those who are affected by her wrath.  

What a beautiful morning.  The fog that rolled in last night still hanging about, but with the sun slowly making its appearance the fog dissipates. 

I am up early to start work early, a stop at my fave coffee shop and a brief chat with a good friend and my day is looking like it is going to be a good one.  Lets hope folks that something or someone does not ruin it for me.  What are the chances?

So my co worker just said...."On a good day you look 29-30yrs old"....meaning the rest of the time I look like an old hag??!??  Thanks Big Mikey! 

To put things into perspective....we were just having a conversation about how some people are fortunate enough to look much younger than they really are.  Both B.M and I are those who are lucky to look much younger than our birth certificates says.  I asked him quite cautiously...just how old are you?  Forty something!!! whoa, I would have said mid 30's.  And then he said the above...what do you say to that?  But I can't stay mad at B.M for long as he always makes me laugh and now I know the truth and I can hold it over his head someday when I need a good....ZING!

Ta Ta for now....

I really dislike grey, cloud filled skies, not a fan so much of the windy gusts that play havoc with my hairstyles of the day.  It is quite Depressing...not a good combo for those suffering from Depression. 

Looking out my window at work I see countless, nameless, people walking with forlorn expressions and I can't help but think about what they are thinking about. 

Are they thinking about the events of the night before, the workday of yesterday and what needs to get done before they can enjoy the weekend, or are they thinking about the exam they are heading to, hoping that the 12 hr cramming they just completed is going to be enough.

BRB! 

So how did you fare last night?
 The light show was fantastic...ON T.V!!  Not from my couch listening to the very loud crash, boom, crack!! just for those who may be reading this and not know what I am referring too, Toronto had a severe thunderstorm warnings, and were on Tornado watch for several hours last night.  And wasn't it exciting!  I was the picture of CALMNESS.....ok not really but HEY, can I help it if I had several near misses with extreme weather in my childhood?  Just the thought of it gives me chills. 

OK,  So here I sit at work, the boss is gone for the day, and I do not feel like entering stats, nor do I feel like working on the resident Newsletter for September either.  I wish I could just go home, who would know?? I work alone, and other than the residents; they are so caught up in their own stuff right now, I wouldn't really be missed.  If only I wasn't so damn responsible and have a tonne of work ethics that I can't do that, even though I really Really REALLY want to!!
S.B is off to WW, and I wish I was with her.  I know she is in need of "kitchen Huggin's"
and in just a few more hours and I can give her all the huggin's she needs.  It's hard to know that someone you love is hurting but you are helpless because of having other commitments...earlier today she called to tell me a cousin of hers was found dead in his apartment.  Wow, what do you say when you hear something like that??

I don't even remember what I said to her, I hope that it was not dumb cuz I tend say dumb things when I am in my own head dealing with my own crap...and trust me it is pure CRAPOLA!

So here I sit, watching the clock go from minute to minute, just wishing for a time warp to travel through and then I can break from here! 

....until next time,
 "G'night Mrs. Calabush wherever you are" - Jimmy Durante

So, not sure if it is out of pure laziness or what, but I have decided to write at home today.  I would have preferred to be at a Starbuck, but I am not into sitting in the crowded "third place" today, not entirely sure why, except I am feeling a tad "crunchy" as my S.B likes to call how I am feeling.  I think I prefer to call it "Not in a head space to deal with F@*$ed up and S#@*%^ people" frame of mind.

Yup.  Thats me today.

So, I had a Dr's Appt today, she say's my iron level is at a level that had it been 30 years ago, she would have me have a blood transfusion....whew....(brow wiping) dodged a bullet there!!...S.B says my mouth opened wider than she ever thought possible...I find that hard to believe.  And  S.B would know I suppose.

Anyway, thankfully all I need is a weekly needle in the A*$ to hopefully bring the level up to "normal parameters" as DATA would say.  DATA was the android in Star Trek TNG for those who don't know who this Data is.

Next on the "To Do List" is HAIRCUTS!.....Faux Hawk #2, to see a tattooed, pierced, bleach blond skunk doo girl named Tiffany!  Who by the way is super hot!....at creating haircuts....ya that's what I mean S.B!  hehe.

Done and Done, when I figure out how to upload a pic i will post one.  But for now my profile pic is pretty damn close...lol

Next stop, Lunch!  only to get stopped on Church St. by a fist fight between a Uniform delivery guy and a not so very nicely dressed Trans-person.  All of a sudden, who pops out from in-between them? but a very tiny woman, who is desperately trying to stop them.  It occurred to me that looks very much like a co-worker of mine....wait a minute!! it IS!  Now my dilemma is do i go help stop the fighting just to stop the fighting or do I try to stop it so my teeny tiny co-worker doesn't get hurt...but by the time I had decided a police car and two officers jumped out.  Whew!  Thankfully S. was not hurt.  So off we went to the Churchmouse, where I ate an enormous Cheddar Bacon Hamburger! yum!

Then to my favorite Starbucks location for my...oh wait!  the wonderful baristas already have it started with three people ahead of me, just by seeing my face and very very cute new haircut, they are simply the best in the city!

Now I am in-between having a panic attack one second and listening to Celine sing her heart out (and loving it)...but shhh don't tell anyone, and smelling the freshness coming from our houseguest, CoCo the Guinea Pig.  Ewww...I think it is S.B's turn.  Yup I do:)

Until next time in the words of Spock..(a character from the original Star Trek....wink wink)

Live Long and Prosper people! dammit!...ok okay I added the last little bit.  :)

Wow! two blogs in one day, who knew? is that even allowed?

So for the past few months I have been sitting in various Starbucks transcribing, writing and just plain wasting time.  An old friend said I should start a blog, I immediately said "what would I blog about?"  Which she replied, "you could visit all of the bux and document the location's computer friendliness and post it in a blog"


so here I am at yet another Starbucks.  My third of the day.  I can say the first one was fab, as it is the one I go to when I am going to work, I am in love with the baristas....who knew I would become a regular?? Years of working behind the counter I really get the customers point of view now.  I loves it when I don't even have to tell them what I want...they just know!  HyoJean! your team is the best!  The second was in a Chapters, with NO outlets for my laptop, so not impressed! and finally the third one, and I must say this is the one I have been frequenting a lot lately.  I like the feel of the atmosphere, not so cookie cutter as I find some locations to be...I can really see that the company is moving away from the same ole same.  Whoohoo!  


So I sit.  I pull out my laptop, plug in my earphones and begin to write, transcribe, email, blog (a new thing) and drink coffee.  How can life get any better??? It is amazing how much I get done, how much I write, I write like a writing fool.  I guess Writers Block is no more!


write on!

alaCA'ZAm!

So here I am blogging.  


Who would have thought that I would have something to say.  Truth is I have a lot to say, I just never had an audience before.  Well okay that isn't entirely true either.  I've had a lot of people throughout my life listening to my drivel, a lot of people with their own perspectives and opinions about my life and how I should improve it or make a change or for whatever the reason, do and be something that I ought to be when I decide I need a change.    


So here goes it.  


When I think about blogging I think about computer people who know a lot more than I know, and who think that there may be people out there in cyber space who are actually interested in what they or anyone has to say about  the various topics that they write about.  I don't have one specific topic to talk or write about, just things about me in general and how I have made lemons into lemonade, how I see life now and how events in my past has shaped me into what and who I am today.


 The Good, the Bad and Everything In Between!